5-3-24

Cade Daniel, Multicultural Lit 1st, 05/03/2024

Dear future self:

I am currently ready to graduate and I am about to do my finals next week. I have a strong belief that I will pass all of my classes and I am not too worried about any one of the finals I have coming up. I am not particularly feeling any particular way about graduation, just ready to be done with high school. I am also ready to move, I am moving right after graduation to Canada. That is more of my concern as it is a less controlled environment. I am actually happy with my grades for once as having almost all 90’s or all 90’s is a big accomplishment for me. All my direct family will be coming to my graduation and honestly they are more emotional about it than me. I just have a carefree mindset in where what happens, happens.

I am happy with how I managed to pass all my grades as I was going through some tough things at certain times. I am also glad I was myself more as I got closer to graduating. I am also proud of my grades this year because they are the best they have ever been. I faced lack of motivation all throughout high school but I eventually came over it as doing the work is easier than having to catch up. I learned that high school is not necessarily there to teach you anything but to teach you to learn. I would tell my younger self to get behind on work and to push through it. I hope my future is calm and organized, I have not really settled down anywhere yet and I am looking forward to it. I fear that my life will fall apart based on certain things, but worrying does not help. I want to develop my forgiveness skill as sometimes I feel I lack that. My biggest influence during high school was the culture as it changed how I think. I want to settle  down and successfully better myself. I will unapologetically be myself, regardless of how I am perceived. I’ve always thought like that but I will stay true to that ideology. 

Overall I am proud of what I have accomplished, the previous year for pushing through it and this year for succeeding. I hope I can be in a place of some sort of peace, I want to move less than 2 times in the next 2 years. My mental state is in a good place right now as I am happy. I hope I continue to keep a carefree mindset to a certain extent. Having a sense of not caring is freeing as you allow yourself to be true. I believe everything should be fine if not better than how it was. I wonder what my music taste will be like whenever I visit this in the future. I wonder what friends I will have in the future too. Also how was that concert you’re going to later this month?

From: Past self